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As I'm here in Hollywood, the news from back in NYC continues to come in. I have done my job as a Madam and protected my clients privacy. Discretion with me was always key.

However, a number of my former clients are currently fighting major legal battles. Crimes much more heinous than mine. This week another one was arrested for sexual crimes against a number of women. His bail - less than 1/4th of mine.

I feel very disturbed by this. The injustice of our legal system is appalling. My bail was $2 million dollars for a victimless crime - 2 counts on my indictment. Yet my former clients - 3 of them now- have victimized hundreds and they are allowed out on bail until they can meet the requirements.

I think this injustice needs to be addressed and I feel strongly that I should speak out. Not against all my clients but those that have victimized people. Why is it that these rich white men are allowed priviledges yet a woman like me who came from nothing sits in jail on a ridiculous bail amount?

The answer to this is that there are distinctly different rules for the rich than their are for the normal. White men with power are given priviledges while normal people are screwed. Women who choose to escort or who choose to run these businesses have power over men. And NO ONE wants to admit that sex is power-and give women the credit they deserve for making a conscious decision to view it as such and capitalize on it.

I know some of you have a misconception that hookers or escorts must come from the streets, must have been abused by a family member, have drug addictions and are forced into this industry. I will continue to tell you THIS IS NOT THE CASE. My girls were beautiful, working towards goals and choose this profession as a mean to an end.

What is ridiculous is that we as a society give the real criminals time to come up with bail while they are still in their home and we cut them slack. Its absurd that I did 4 months in RIKERS ISLAND while my other clients have devastated and ruined people's lives and they are sitting in their Park Avenue apartments eating caviar.

Its about time these issues were addressed and I'm going to make it my mission in life to do so. To make sure we stop spending tax payer money on investigating crimes like mine while people like Bernie Maddof defrauded thousands for years right under ELLIOT SPITZERS nose. Who is the real criminal here?

Feel free to email me your thoughts on this, as always, I am open to hearing them
kristin@manhattanmadam.com

I know I tend to keep this blog light- and thats done deliberately. I keep alot of my personal life out of here and I realized that many of you don't know much about "me".

I just had drinks with a new -but good-friend. He is an amazing amazing guy who is the host of a rock music station. We got to talking about hard rock, metal, and it was one of the funnest and coolest conversations I've had in awhile.

I have loved hard rock music since I was about 5. My uncle took me to my first concert which was Kiss since he went to high school with Paul. Rumor has it that I was a cute little blonde girl whom he dressed in black and put the white/black face makeup on and a complete chick magnet. I believe that created my deep and unwavoring love of heavy music.

I do like many different kinds of music. However, I truly love LOVE hard rock. I know, it seems strange since I host alot of clubs. And I do like house music but my heart remains true to rock n' roll (metal more specifically). 

There are a few singers out there whose voices make me melt. They make me cry, I feel their pain and I just can't be moved that much by any other genre of music. My new friend and I were having such a great talk that I started listing my top 5 singers. I couldn't quite narrow it down but it was fun to try. 

I listen to these groups and singers, whatever project they may be in, quite religiously. Here they are:

Kristins Top Singers

1. Layne Staley (Alice in Chains) - no one could ever compare to him
2. Corey Taylor (Slipknot, Stone Sour)
3. Chester Bennington (Linkin Park)
4. Zach De La Rocha (Rage Against the Machine)
5. Lajon Witherspoon (Sevendust)
6. Edsel Dope (Dope)
7. Josh Todd (Buckcherry)

I have a number of announcements to make....shortly. Waiting for everything to come to fruition and things move so slowly.

Slow is actually torture to me. I'm the type of person that moves quickly. I think of an idea and I get it done asap. I never second guess myself and I never mull thiings over. Some people call that rash decision making, I call it smart. I trust myself, my intuition and I know that whatever it is I put my mind to - it will be successful. I think we spend so much time considering things that we talk ourselves out of opportunities. Or we spend so much time thinking that we change our feelings about a situation and enter into it with skepticism which results in a negative outcome.

When I opened my call center in Uruguay I made one of those rash decisions. Someone suggested opening an office there to reduce expenses, I researched it online and the next day the trip was booked. We had an office space in a week and a full phone staff in 2 1/2 weeks. It would have been sooner if Uruguay operated normally. They are still one of those countries that takes a 12-2pm siesta (gotta love that tho).

Lately, I've been working with so many different people, on different coasts, that I spend alot of my time waiting. Waiting for attorneys to coordinate conference calls, waiting for offers to be made and waiting for meetings to be scheduled. Waiting, waiting, waiting.

Not very interesting huh? I will say that all the waiting is paying off big time and I'm definitely learning some more about patience. I just wished things moved quicker and I could share more with you.

I had the opportunity to hang out wtih Roger Stone today and if you don't know him, google him. He is brilliant and responsible for much of the political hijinks that is occuring right now - even the current state of affairs in the Senate. Some call him the most feared man in politics - I call him a friend! www.stonezone.com

Hopefully will be able to post more soon...

I've been a bit behind in my blog posting this week. I had the flu for 10 days which is an insane amount of time to be sick. I literally couldn't get out of bed for 9 of those days and was a coughing, feverish mess. I'm finally better and ready to see daylight lol.

Its funny how much one takes things for granted. When I was in Rikers I saw daylight for about 1 hour a day. If that. Their was a window in each cell but it didn't really open - except for 2 inches to let in a wee amount of air. It was a darker colored glass so you couldn't see in or out. We were let out for 1 hour a day in dog kennels about 8x8 in size. It was nice to get out but torture because you couldn't do much but pace around this small area.

Now sometimes I just go sit outside on a bench or step somewhere. Its nice to take a few moments out of the day and appreciate how beautiful the outdoors can be. Even in New York City where its highrise after highrise, you can still take a walk to the waterfront and gaze at the beautiful blue sky and clear your head.

Now that I'm finally well, I'm anxious to get outside even just for a few minutes. Last year I had the luxury of living on the beach (after I got out of jail) and I have to say it was a wonderful summer. I got up every day and went for a 4 mile run on the boardwalk. I spent alot of time just laying on the sand with a book and thinking how beautiful the ocean is and how lucky I was to be out of jail. I never want to forget that feeling of appreciation. Appreciation for life, for people and for freedom.

Its important for me to live my life with appreciation because I don't want to take anything for granted. Life is too short not to live it fully and too beautiful to not appreciate what you have in your life....

I recently had the opporunity to talk with Tzach Yoked who is a reporter with Israel's largest newspaper, Ma' ariv. He is a great interviewer and was very interested in my story. I have a few pieces coming out this month internationally and this is just the first.

Thought I would take a moment and share it with you- was on the cover which is always nice coverage. I have no idea what this says since I don't speak Hebrew.

 

Last year this time I was sitting in Riker's Island. It was getting hot and there was no air conditioning. I had been in jail 3 months at that point. Thats 3 months with no mirror, no shampoo, no conditioner, no nail clippers, 3 months of little to no human contact, no hugs, no kisses, 3 months of 21 minutes of phone time, 3 months of having to ask to shower and being locked inside an 8x10 cell 23 hours out of the day (so when you see some crappy photos of me, cut me some slack).

I was desperate to get out. I was a complete physical and mental headcase, a walking emotional wreck. I'm the first one to tell you - I was NOT meant for jail. I did not do well in there. People tell me I am strong. I didn't feel strong inside of Rikers. Not at all. I was scared to death, not sure what was going to happen to me or when I was getting out. My attorney had told me so many stories that I was sure I was the victim of some huge conspiracy by the rich and powerful Spitzers and would spend years fighting my case.

I remember the first day the weather got warm. It was right around this time that we had a 3 day heatwave. It was so hot in my cell that I was having nose bleeds and could barely catch my breath. Our area didn't have any water and we spent all day asking for ice and water until about 4pm when they finally got some from the kitchen. Funny thing - the "bubble" where the officers sit was air conditioned - thats the officer's office which is part of our area. Somehow the rest of the unit (where the inmates are) is not air conditioned. I wrote a few letters trying to get them to see that it was inhumane to keep us in concrete cells that are about 90 degrees and not give us water. No one cared.

I don't think I have ever been so miserable in my life. All I did was pray and cry. And talk to Remy. I won't lie and tell you that I knew I'd be ok or that I was looking forward to getting out. I was scared and felt like I had lost everything - which I had.

Today since the weather was nice brought all the memories flooding back. I'm quite sure I'm suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder since I've really yet to deal with all those feelings.  I try not to think about what it was like. My life by that time had changed and I would never be the same.

Now when I think about it, I am glad I had the experience. I am truly a better person for what I have gone through. I really and truly value the people in my life and the experiences I have. Its not so much about the outcome of the event, its about having the experience. I learned how to be a better person through this adversity. I learned how to value and love those who love me.

Alot of people ask me if I'm mad at those who ratted me out and how I feel. I actually don't think about it much. I don't have time for bad energy. I have had alot of people do me wrong - that I can't dispute. If you think I think twice about it - I don't. Why should I? It has nothing to do with me and everything to do with that person's character. If you think I'm dwelling on anything from the past then you don't get what I'm about. The past is the past and its better left in the past. The "now" for me is amazing and I am so incredibly happy its not even funny. I have met so many amazing people and have a great group in my life, I couldn't ask for more.

Don't get me wrong, I could have completely done without the Riker's Island Experience. However, I think this is the path that was chosen for me. I have the opportunity to do some good now and thats what I am doing.

Be sure to check out my interview on 50 cent's site www.thisis50.com. Special shot out to my friend Jeremy at G-Unit. Those guys are great and I love everyone over there.

Hey everyone- I had to cancel the Jersey Shore event. I have the flu and am very sick. We are rescheduling for a couple of weeks so stay posted!

I get a number of emails and thought I would take a moment to address the most frequently asked questions:

 

1. Can you give me any advice on working as an escort? NO. I am presently on probation. I can't offer any advice and ultimately - its not a matter of "if" you will get busted - its a matter of "when". So if your going to enter into this profession you need to make yourself ok with the thought of going to jail. Don't kid yourself- it can and will happen.
2. Do you regret what you did? NO. I do not regret the way I've lived my life. I don't have any regrets. Everything that has happened to me has helped me to grow as a person and become a better person so I value the experiences.
3. What are you doing now? As of right now, I am writing for Penthouse Magazine and working on my 2nd book. I am also hosting parties and DJ'ing for Hype Artist Management www.hypeartistmanagement.com. I have a wonderful film agent in California and have numerous other offers on the table. We are sorting them out and I will make some announcements in the next couple of months.
4. What is your stance on prostitution? I strongly believe that Prostitution should be legalized. It is not called the "oldest profession in the world" because its a new business. It has been around since the dawn of time and we need to regulate it to ensure safety and health standards are met.
5. How do you feel about Spitzer? I believe there are many inequities in our cases and feel strongly that he should have faced criminal charges. I think that his case only highlights the fact that there are different standards for the rich and powerful and they are not held to the same set of rules as everyone else.
6. Are you single? Very sweet question, yes I am single and playing the field ;)

As always, feel free to email me kristin@manhattanmadam.com